If you ask yourself this question and you're exactly where you said you would be, then good. for. you. Honestly. I'm envious.
Back in high school/college, I was obsessed with going to Chicago. I would try to go a few times a month. I just loved to go downtown and walk around on Michigan Avenue and the Navy Pier. I had this vision of my moving to Chicago, becoming a judge (I must have thought I was going to become a judge magically without having gone to law school which I never wanted to do), working late, then going out for "drinks" with friends, before returning to my high-rise Lake Point Tower condo. Thinking back, I'm assuming I was going to be single while living this life. But, ever since I can remember, I've always wanted to get married. I think for me that meant I finally found someone who loved me back. I have never wanted kids so I don't really pay attention to the tick-tock of my biological clock (in my Marisa Tomei voice from My Cousin Vinny).
I don't hate my life in Fort Wayne. Especially because my whole family lives here. I just feel like I'm constantly missing out on things because I don't have anyone to really do things with. Could I do them alone? Sure. But, who wants to do that? However, I did go see Kevin Hart when he came to the Embassy by myself.
Would I still want to move to Chicago? Abso-freaking-lutely. I'd move tomorrow if I could. If and when I got married, and my husband wanted to move to Chicago, I would move in a heartbeat. I just want to be in driving distance of my family.
I don't really know where I got off course with my plans. I feel like back in high school and early college, I was so motivated. Now, I'm just going through the motions of each day because that's what you're supposed to do. You're supposed to get up and go to work, go home and have dinner, and relax for the following work day.
I know I'm only 34 years old and I have a lifetime to live. I just hope at the end of it all I can look back and see some happiness.
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