Describe your most difficult breakup and what you learned from it.
I realize the question asks me what I think my most difficult break up was. But, I think if I asked someone close to me what they thought my most difficult breakup was, it would be different than what I'm about to say.
I'm actually going to pick two. And, I'm picking these because they are the ones I recall hurting the most from. Mainly, because they came out of no where. Some of the relationships I've had progressively ended. It wasn't something that just happened over night.
My first most difficult breakup would be by far my high school relationship. Kevin and I were together for almost two years I believe. This one always sticks out in my mind because I had never been through a breakup before. I didn't know what it was like to have a broken heart. We broke up because Kevin basically wanted his freedom. I mean hello, we were in high school. I don't blame him now. But, we were together all of the time. He was my best friend. I remember I was in my bedroom talking to him on the phone when we broke up. After we got off the phone, I took down all of our pictures and threw away anything that reminded me of him. It was a pain and sadness I had never experienced nor will I ever forget. Being that this was my high school relationship, I can't say for sure that I learned much or took much from the relationship. I wasn't in that stage of my life yet to come out of it with much of a life lesson.
The second most difficult breakup I remember going through was with Nick. We were together only a short time. It was kind of a summer fling. I had met him through Mike and Aaron who I went to college with. I don't even remember how they knew him. But, after Mike and I broke up, Nick was there. He was by far one of the funniest people I had ever met so it was nice to have him around to make me laugh. I didn't like him right away. I just considered him a friend until I could move on from my feelings that I had for Mike. We were always together and we had so much fun. We went camping, to the drive-in, Chicago, fireworks, etc. We dated when I lived with my sister and her now ex-husband. Nick basically lived with us too. He spent the night every night. I remember it was right around the time of the Johnny Appleseed Festival. He had been sick with a cold, but he still wanted to go walk around the festival. Then the following week, he just decided one night he was going to go stay at his house. He had said his sister was getting mad because he was never home. After that night, it was never the same. I think he would just humor me most of the time because he knew how badly he had hurt me. I still till this day don't know why he broke up with me. I've seen him maybe a couple of times since. And, he would just lie about the dumbest things. I look for him every so often on Facebook, but haven't been able to find him. I've never seen him around town, so I don't know if he even lives in Fort Wayne anymore. I just remember when he broke up with me that I felt like I couldn't breath. I remember sitting at the kitchen table and I called my mom at work and was just sobbing. I couldn't figure out how to pick the pieces up and move on. Again, with this relationship, I don't know what I took from it being that I was so young. I just know that out of the few relationships I've had, he was definitely someone I truly loved.
Even now as I'm writing this blog and reliving these moments, I can't say that I learned anything. Both of these guys were a huge part of my life at the time and are a huge part of my past.
I realize the question asks me what I think my most difficult break up was. But, I think if I asked someone close to me what they thought my most difficult breakup was, it would be different than what I'm about to say.
I'm actually going to pick two. And, I'm picking these because they are the ones I recall hurting the most from. Mainly, because they came out of no where. Some of the relationships I've had progressively ended. It wasn't something that just happened over night.
My first most difficult breakup would be by far my high school relationship. Kevin and I were together for almost two years I believe. This one always sticks out in my mind because I had never been through a breakup before. I didn't know what it was like to have a broken heart. We broke up because Kevin basically wanted his freedom. I mean hello, we were in high school. I don't blame him now. But, we were together all of the time. He was my best friend. I remember I was in my bedroom talking to him on the phone when we broke up. After we got off the phone, I took down all of our pictures and threw away anything that reminded me of him. It was a pain and sadness I had never experienced nor will I ever forget. Being that this was my high school relationship, I can't say for sure that I learned much or took much from the relationship. I wasn't in that stage of my life yet to come out of it with much of a life lesson.
The second most difficult breakup I remember going through was with Nick. We were together only a short time. It was kind of a summer fling. I had met him through Mike and Aaron who I went to college with. I don't even remember how they knew him. But, after Mike and I broke up, Nick was there. He was by far one of the funniest people I had ever met so it was nice to have him around to make me laugh. I didn't like him right away. I just considered him a friend until I could move on from my feelings that I had for Mike. We were always together and we had so much fun. We went camping, to the drive-in, Chicago, fireworks, etc. We dated when I lived with my sister and her now ex-husband. Nick basically lived with us too. He spent the night every night. I remember it was right around the time of the Johnny Appleseed Festival. He had been sick with a cold, but he still wanted to go walk around the festival. Then the following week, he just decided one night he was going to go stay at his house. He had said his sister was getting mad because he was never home. After that night, it was never the same. I think he would just humor me most of the time because he knew how badly he had hurt me. I still till this day don't know why he broke up with me. I've seen him maybe a couple of times since. And, he would just lie about the dumbest things. I look for him every so often on Facebook, but haven't been able to find him. I've never seen him around town, so I don't know if he even lives in Fort Wayne anymore. I just remember when he broke up with me that I felt like I couldn't breath. I remember sitting at the kitchen table and I called my mom at work and was just sobbing. I couldn't figure out how to pick the pieces up and move on. Again, with this relationship, I don't know what I took from it being that I was so young. I just know that out of the few relationships I've had, he was definitely someone I truly loved.
Even now as I'm writing this blog and reliving these moments, I can't say that I learned anything. Both of these guys were a huge part of my life at the time and are a huge part of my past.
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