Life Lessons

It amazes me the moments we tend to remember. 

Lately, I keep thinking about a specific Friday.  I lived at my old apartment and was with Joey at the time.  I remember driving down Lake on my way home from work.  I remember feeling like I needed some excitement in my life.  How it would be nice to be getting off of work and heading home to get ready for a date.  You know the excitement and butterflies you get before going out with someone new?  I don't remember if Joey was in the hospital that day.  Or, maybe we just didn't have any plans.  I really can't recall that.  Part of me thinks maybe we just were kind of distant at the time.  Because I don't ever remember wishing I was in a different situation when Joey was in the hospital sick.  Ever. 

When I think back to that moment and how I felt, it makes me sad.  And, I think for a few different reasons.  The main reason obviously being is that I would give anything to be back in that moment where I had Joey in my life.  I also don't want to be that person who always wants what they don't have.  I don't want to be in a relationship wishing I were single.  And, I don't want to be single wishing I were in a relationship.  I want to be happy in that moment. 

I wish I knew why that specific moment and that specific feeling I had always stays with me.  Maybe it's God's way of teaching me to appreciate what I have at the moment and not wishing for something or someone that I don't have.